Me Time

It's a Saturday and I feel so great. I got a lot done, I got to spend a lot of time today with a person who I've been neglecting, and unfortunately that person is me. It's not like I have been purposely been neglecting Me Time. It's simply that I have yet to make that time for myself. Today was a taste of what I have been missing. I don't mean to be hella stuck up or seem anti-social, but not seeing spending the whole day/night with people I see daily or every weekend, not talking to people for a full day is so uplifting for me. It's real - it is something I can't front on. If I fronted, a fear of being alone, I'd make it seem like I NEED other people around in order for me to get through a day. Hell na. I don't depend on any of that. I am out here in My world. As depressing or uncertain my life may be at times, i'm grateful for the family that was there for me and even there, period. My whole war cry during college was 'fuck friends'. Anti-social? Possibly. Do I care? Nope. Has it taken me far? Absolutely. It's my world, it's not 'our' world. Only a few people understand this about me, and well, I just hope they recognize if they ponder ME. The more I am thinking about it, I seem complex haha. I've always thought of myself as a simple person: I'm tired, I sleep. I'm hungry, I eat. I need to pay bills, I pay that shit. Done deal. But I guess there's more to it in regards to my surroundings; it is what it is. I have levels of sacrifice in which I would sacrifice time, money, effort, in order to assist my fam or close friends. Wow... like I said, I'm realizing my complexity hahaha

Anyways, back to how great today has been so far. Got to visit my moms and took her out for breakfast, mad an appointment with an acupuncturist for this Tuesday, meditate on my lost loved ones, cleaned the house up, Worked out... just a lot. I got to breathe and experience my real world again. I need more sleep. Time to knock out for a nap before we tear the club up tonight. Ahh, ME TIME.